If only for a moment I could go back in time,
not worry about the fact that I was just hired for a new position,
not worry about my young son and husband,
If only for a moment I could go back and make the decision again,
the decision to travel to see my father
If only for a moment I could go back and tell him before he was in a coma how much I loved him
If only for a moment I could give him another kiss and say, “I love you” while he was aware that I was there
Today, I try to live in the moment
I take every moment I can to tell my family how much they mean to me. I know that my boys think I am crazy but I have this obsession of making sure I give them a kiss and say, “I love you,” before I leave. I will hunt them down in any part of the house, and I mean even the shower, just to do this. I follow up my kiss with, “I love you, see you later”, never “good bye”. Good bye sounds so permanent to me. I know, I think some thing is wrong with me too, LOL.
I never want my kids to think, if only for a moment. I want them to live in the moment.